Kinda disappointed but proud at the same time

For the past couple of weeks I have been beasting out at the gym and at our local boot camp. The boot camp has been offering a free class once a week (which I have been going to for quite a while now) and is now doing it twice a week and they also had circuit training for the first time at my gym Saturday morning.
Though I so desperately wanted to sleep in since the baby usually does only on Saturdays.
Last week I only worked out 3x but ate everything I was suppose to with a  few exceptions, but hey a little indulgence every once in a while didn't ever hurt anyone ;)

I know I shouldn't expect the scale to move much if at all this week but I'm just getting kind of disappointed that the baby's birthday is only 25 days away and I was hoping for at least 10 more pounds before it. I know my weight doesn't define who I am or what kind of person I am.....BUT its a number I obsess with as well as  my measurements that usually defines how my progress is coming along if not then the way my clothes fit does. But again I AM PROUD of what I have accomplished and not becoming another statistic about mothers who only gain weight after they have a kid(s).

In other news I have pretty much planned out all the local 5Ks I plan on running and hopefully some runs that are in the bigger cities. I have been talking to a couple boot camp ladies and hopefully we will have a team together to support each other and have some fun in the process. STRENGTH IS IN NUMBERS!!

I have been having a lot of stressful/drama filled days the passed week or two and I gotta tell ya they have have been awesome fuel for my workouts! I have learned to not let things ruin my day or my "journey" but to  keep them and USE them for motivation. Misery loves company and I refuse to join in!

Besides being around my family the best feeling is people I see all the time giving me compliments about my progress. I'm not conceited nor do I pry for them but it is awesome to know that my work can or is inspiring others. And also knowing that its not easy for people to just throw compliments out there.

Another amazing feeling is helping people. There was a lady at boot camp last night and she was quite overweight. I'm not judging just letting ya'll know. She had a fire in her heart to lose weight, you could really tell!
Anyways, she started to jog from where we were at back to where we meet up, I would say it was a good quarter of a mile or a little more. Most of the people were slowly walking after our brutal but good workout. I ended up sprinting up to her, I felt like she needed some motivation for some reason. You could tell she was struggling by her breathing and how her face changed expression after a couple minutes. I then began telling her, "Come on You got this, this is nothing!, Dont back down, I'm right here with you. Lets get this done, We have already come this far its not much farther. I helped her control her breathing and just kept telling her how good she was doing!" Everything I said to her was true and she jogged that whole thing even though I know it was hard for her but she did it! And there was pride all over her face after that!

Sometimes those moments make me want to do more with fitness and nutrition. I don't have time or want to go back to college but we will see where I go from here.


I'm going to leave you with a few motivating things that get me through each day!

Happy Tuesday!

"just because something is hard or uncomfortable don't be defeated... Don't back down, make it your B!txh!
If you don't do your best the only person who you are failing is yourself!" :)-Lachele Duff