what happened last night.

I just realized I accidentally lied to y'all...Sunday was the first time in 5+years that I had worn a tank top in public not yesterday..

I guess I didn't realize it since I was mainly around strangers Sunday and Wednesday I was around people that I know.

My feet don't bounce when I need to run. So when I got off work yesterday I got butterflies in my stomach and a little excited, kind of like I was about to go on a first date type of feeling. It was so pretty yesterday so I cooked dinner for myself and then made the hubs and baby diva a not as healthy dinner. After I laid the cranky baby down for sleep a little after 7 (her normal bedtime) I went for a run even though I had already gotten a workout in that morning. I didn't have a route picked out or plan on how much time I wanted to run I just wanted to pound out some pavement alone!!

I really want a backpack water holder-thing-a-ma-bobber. My main problem is I don't run as far as I could because I run out of water and I constantly have to drink while running or really when I do anything.

I realized before I left the house that I had a couple small holes in the middle of the thighs in my workout pants. I knew better but decided I wouldn't change because I haven't chaffed there in about 6-8 months.... By the end of my run I had huge holes in the thigh area almost down to the knees and the worst chub rub I have ever experienced. #missionhotpants literally

Right there is why I probably won't be running in shorts this summer.

I was feeling good (aside from the chaffing) after 2 miles and decided to go just a little bit further I went down the huge hill near my house and lost my footing on the horribly cracked sidewalk. When I fell my left ankle popped, skinned my left hand, and my right knee pretty bad. I haven't had such a hard fall since grade school... well, while I was sober! ha

I came home took an ice cold bath, put a wrap around my foot, and ointment on my thighs. It cooled the skin and felt a lot better! I didn't get a picture of my thighs.... I'm sure you are interested in that 😜but Im not comfortable with cameras that close to my vagine....

I was talking to the hubs after my run and told him I was frustrated that I don't ever run as fast as I normally do when I run a race and asked him why that was?.?. He said that he thinks that my nerves and my head is what messes me up. My fear of failure and my comparing myself to others. I couldn't agree more! That and I know he and the baby are impatiently waiting for me at the finish line so that just adds to the pressure/stress.

I have a non-timed race tomorrow so I'm hoping I'm ok physically to run it. I won't have any support there for the first time so I'm going to see how that affects my time/head space.

It's finally Friday!! 

Here's to the freakin weekend!