I had a feeling..

I don't know really how to explain this but I have had a strange "feeling" for about a week now. And I felt like something was about to happen and I would lose sleep over it. Today I decided against this feeling and go out for a run. Almost a mile in and I went to step on a curb and somehow lost my footing, landed wrong on my right foot which made a very loud POP, and then my left leg ended up just getting scraped all the hell. I am just 15weeks out from my first ever half marathon that I registered for YESTERDAY!!! And stupid me I didn't sign up for the additional $7 charge for protection which helped you to get all your money back just in case you got injured or couldn't make it. 

So here I am sitting on the side of the road in tremendous pain, crying my eyes out. I called my husband to come get me and I feared the worst. I just knew my leg was broken or something like that. A few minutes later he pulled up and all I could think about was I'm about to start a new job and have been training hard for this Half marathon as well as a couple other races I had planned to do pretty soon.

I know why people give up on their dreams after they get injured. I mean I have accomplished so much and might have to start right back at "point A" when I'm clearly miles from that point... To relearn how to run..... it just sounds horrible, devastating, depressing, feels like life is never ending with disappointment. I mean I get hired for an amazing job (start in a couple weeks) and have races I'm determined to PR at and I probably can't run any races for the rest of the year and hopefully will be able to walk on my first day of work. 

My husband has been on webmd and other helpful sites since it has happened. He doesn't have medical experience and I don't have any health insurance so we rely a lot on the Internet for answers.

He believes its a pretty bad sprain but his cousin (who lives with us) was in football for many many years and knows a lot of injuries first Hand and believes its just a rolled ankle. 

I have been doing everything I am suppose to for a fast and healthy recovery but I'm extremely worried. I can handle a couple weeks of recovering to get back to training for the half but 4-6weeks and possibly not being able to fully recover for up to 6months. 😖😳

At least that's what the Internet advises.

I am in the best shape of my life and the healthiest I have ever been. Why would this happen to me now and not years ago??? 

I'm just angry... and don't know what I think or do at this point.