negative nancy

I have been trying to figure out what to post for at least a week now and couldn't think of anything that wasn't just down right negative or a post strictly bitching about my life as it is right now since there is not much to ne positive about.
So I'm going to try to stay as positive as possible.

I'm very thankful for my health as well as my husband and daughters health. Without those two people I would be nothing in all honesty and I know alot of people say that but in my case it couldn't be more true.
The past two years have been full of grieving, sadness, loneliness, depression, and weakness. Yet it has also been full of happiness, strength, and complete pride in my little family I have made.
Its crazy how my heart and my head can have so many different emotions from so many horrible, heartbreaking events followed by heartwarming and happy events.
I just want my heart and my head to heal from my past and to be able to move on and to be a better wife and mother but it seems like the past has I always come into my present and ruin good things.

I am trying to control myself but for the time being I'm working on not only better-ing myself on the outside but to also make myself a better person on the inside.

I am thankful for the life I live though I wish all the good I do for others and a desperate need for a better more and more deserving career would fall into my lap ASAP! I need good karma to finally kick in soon!
I sure pray things get better financially for us soon as well.


Speaking of positivity...
I FINALLY got down to my pre-pregnancy weight!!!!!! that's what's up!
AND I FINALLY broke 3 of my running records.... when I first started working out 6months ago a mile used to take me 30 minutes.....I never would have dreamed that I could do it in 12 minutes!!! I keep busting through the goals I make big and small so my new goal is a 10minute mile! fingers crossed because I have until November 3rd to do it!

Two miles used to take me an hour and 3 miles was usually unthinkable but if I did it it would take me an hour and a half! I have accomplished so much with my working out and running I couldnt be more proud of myself!

 

 

 

Have a Great Week