I seriously sometimes think that I need to go to some meetings for my addiction to any and all food!
My addiction to food has been a lifelong problem. My mother used to be pretty strict on how much sugar/candy we ate and I want to say I was about 6 or 7 when I started hiding random containers full of raw sugar around the house! Yes, you read that right sugar hidden in the most random places and the funny thing is no one ever found them or knew anything about them! I just felt like I needed them, it was my only comfort!
And to this day, even after losing 80 pounds, when something doesn't go right, when the hubs and I get in an argument, when I get stressed about pretty much anything I still feel like that little kid and want to hide and eat. But there are days like today everything is going just fine, no worries, or stress but it is taking everything I have to not eat my weight in food (healthy or not!)
When I go to a birthday party, baby shower, family cookout, or holiday all I think about is what kind of food will be there and I get excited! I do enjoy my friends and family I get to see but most of my excitement is for the food! I cant the only one that feels like this.. right?
Hopefully I can get over this in the future. And not feel like food controls me.
-Duffswife
You are not the only one who feels like that. I love food. I eat food because it taste good. I go to certain events just because I know the food will be good and it's an excuse to eat it. I think over time you can go longer with resisting, but it doesn't really go away. I hope that one day it will be gone, but for right now I'm trying to remember that it will pass and I will get back to being healthy.
ReplyDeletethank you for your comment! I'm so glad I'm not alone makes me feel better!
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