Tough Times

My last post was suppose to be "published" on Monday but I just realized it didn't so that's why there are two posts today.

I have been absent because we have fallen into some hard times. I wasn't going to post about it but I think I'll feel better if I do.

The awesome job that I got 2 1/2months ago was only temporary and I knew going into it that it could end anytime but that the max would be 6 months. I took that job hoping that when/if a permanent job came open I could apply for that seeing as I got my foot in the door and all.

Well, that didn't happen they let me and another temp go and I'm more than positive that our positions altogether will be done away with.

I feel like a failure as a mother, a wife, and a person. I knew that this was a possibility but I had faith that it would all work out. I surprisingly am not depressed or have anxiety today. I did on Tuesday when I got the news. I almost passed out from the shock and overpowering stress.

My sweet friends took me out Tuesday night got me rip-roaring drunk made me sing a song of my choosing being as it was Karaoke night and all. I don't sing in public...at all...ever! But they took the time to care, do my hair & makeup, dress me, AND buy all my drinks! ;)

I hid behind my friend as I sang I love Rock and Roll and she was my backup singer.

I channeled B. Spears in the movie Crossroads.

Surprisingly I only over ate on Tuesday for obvious reasons and have worked out and ate within my calories since then. I could give up and eat my feelings, I could  stay in bed all day and pout, I could go back to being a negative nancy but I won't! Things happen for a reason and a better opportunity is hopefully right around the corner. Our babysitter and her husband (my husband's cousin) filed for divorce yesterday and he is supposed to be moving in with us till he gets back on his feet. It was a shock to all of us but whatever makes them happy. 

Prayers are appreciated for both families.

TGIF