Ugh not again!!

It seems like most of the bloggers I follow are sitting in the same boat as me. We have all gained weight that we have recently lost and are trying to get “back on track”. I don’t really like that term because I never technically got off track I still ate mostly healthy I just ate more than I should have. I still ran just not as much as I should have. I couldn’t afford to go to the gym anymore so I sat on my butt and watched tv. Even though I had figured out the “why” to my snacking I still would snack when I was stressed. I still didn’t drink alcohol or pop much this summer but here I am in my size 12 pants that were once falling off my hips that are now so snug that I am uncomfortably sitting with a muffin top. I’m furious at myself and have been like this for about 2weeks now. I know I should eat better but what did I do yesterday when I went home for lunch (I live literally 3mins from my work, it’s cheaper, and supposed to be a way for me to eat healthier..pffft) I STUFFED my face with salt and vinegar pringles, (yummy!) ate TWO raisin cinnamon bagel things that were 270calories A PIECE!!!!!!!, oooh I forgot to mention that I smothered those bagels in unhealthy butter. I am not proud of myself to say the least.

 

I did join a new gym and have been going but now the mommy guilt is back. I spent all summer with my baby and only left her when I went on my runs. So now I’m working again and know I have been away from her for 9hours and then I’m going to leave for another hour. Ugh. I had dealt with that guilt before and was fine but after being basically glued to her hip (or her glued to mine..whateverrr)for 3 full months makes me feel like the worst mother ever. It’s next to impossible for me to be a part of the5am club. My mind and body just can’t work that early. I do my best workouts at night. I’m sure this will all pass hopefully soon!

Now the holidays are upon us and I have to worry about my eating since I let myself go this summer….I was not ready for all the holidays and festivities as far as the food goes. I still have those nice size 9 #hotpants that I’m dying to wear but it seems like I won’t be wearing those anytime soon. Whomp whomp.