Random thoughts, end of my juicing, and Miley.

This post is going to be a big mess of my thoughts but bear with me.

 

The last four days of my juicing adventure wasn’t that bad in fact they are kind of a blur. The week I juiced thankfully went by fast. Even though I had a couple handfuls of candy corn a day and on Friday night instead of juicing a salad I ate one while my family ate a big Italian dinner. And of course on Saturday we ate dinner at my favorite Italian restaurant Pete’s Place for our dating Anniversary.

I didn’t once get weak or feel like I was going to pass out like I originally thought. I still wanted my favorite foods but I realized that I do have more self-control than I gave myself credit for. You will be happy to hear that I did lose 5.5lbs but you won’t be happy to hear that I gained almost all of it back when I started eating real food again womp womp. I forgot to take a picture of the scale when I lost the weight but oh well. I do have comparison photos…so there’s that.

There isn't that big of a difference but I can tell a little bit.

I think it was a great way to cleanse my body but not necessarily a great way to lose weight and keep it off. Your body is basically starving itself even though you are still getting your nutrients and as soon as it gets real food it grabs everything like its in survival mode. This is just my observation I am not a licensed anything I'm just sharing my thoughts and experience.

I had to go out of town for work on Tuesday and we could only get food in the downstairs cafeteria then came straight back to work through lunch. I was starving and got a cheeseburger with small fries, a side salad with carrots and homemade hummus yummy. I ate all my fries and only half of the rest which means my stomach shrank too!!

 

I have decided that I’m sick of being in this little slump and not liking myself so I am going to be working on that pretty hard from now on. I read several posts yesterday and each one basically said that if you don’t like yourself now what makes you think you will like yourself when you hit your goal weight?!? WOW! That makes sense and was probably what I needed to know to work on myself more internally.

The end of August through the middle of September I would lay my clothes out the night before work along with my accessories and would wake up early to do my hair and makeup. For the past few weeks I have been waking up late even though I go to bed at a decent hour and rush to find something acceptable to wear and throw my hair up in a ponytail or half ass straighten my hair.

I have had several women that I know comment about how they don’t care about their appearance because they have no one to impress, or their husbands love them for them, and they don’t have to dress up for them. Ok I am not going to comment on their opinions because well those are their opinions and that’s how they feel which is fine. But I for one and not going to be like that. I said those exact same words when I was in a not-so-great-or-healthy relationship years ago and let me tell you I didn’t like the way I looked, I didn’t care, and I didn’t want to impress anyone or have anyone look at me for that matter. I didn’t like what I saw in the mirror so I would wear clothes that would fit no matter what they looked like. But now I am in the best shape of my life even though I have plenty of room for improvement and am not perfect  and have huge goals I’m going to accomplish by the end of next month and you know what I DO have someone I want to impress. I do have someone that I want to dress up for…actually I have two people one of course is my husband and the second is myself!!! I am in a better mood when I wake up early to do my hair and have a pretty outfit picked out. My mornings go by a lot easier when I am organized/prepared. I feel happier when I make an EFFORT. I put so much energy into my family and my job that you know what I deserve to make an effort for myself!!!! The days I sleep in for just 5 more minutes and throw clothes on last minute I am in a terrible mood. Those extra shut eye moments are just not worth it and I’m glad I pulled myself back from going back into the slump of not caring.

 

Even though I didn’t want to work out last night I did. I knew I would regret it and I knew that would be a constant thought until I went to bed.

 

 So I went and got to listen to Miley Cyrus’s new album. I have like a few of Miley’s songs in the past but I freakin’ love her entire album! Seriously, it brings me back to those days when I was rebellious and had my heartbroken. I finally understand her new “image” she’s heartbroken from her ex cheating on her constantly and this is her way of moving on. I mean come on the DAY they announced the breakup he was "officially" dating some singer. Can't say I wouldn't do the same if I was in her very public position She is trying to show him and the world that she is better off and you know what?!?! YOU GO GIRL! If you want to grind on Robin Thicke and molest a foam finger then by all means!