Karma... and my eats

So I was creeping on FB the other day and noticed that a couple of my grade school bullies who are not on my friends list for obvious reasons commented on one of my FB "friends" statuses. And I noticed that they have gained ALOT of weight. Normally I wouldn't post or even think about being happy about someone else's weight gain. But...

9years of my school going career?!? I guess that's what we will call it were spent being picked on for everything from my imperfect teeth, the clothes I wore, my wrongly timed jokes, for being poor, for not drinking/sleeping around in the 6th grade?!?!? (yeah I'm surprised there weren't more young pregnancies back then), but mostly about my weight!

I changed schools in the 5th grade because of bullying just to be transferred to a school where I got picked on even worst....

I literally came home and cried my eyes out almost everyday for 9 years. I asked my mom why they had to pick on me? Why did others find joy in my pain?

 And this is where I started to turn to food.  I liked junk food but up until 4th grade I could do without. After starting 5th grade I couldn't live without it...

But to see that the people who made my life a living hell for 3years and who I ultimately blame for the start of my bad eating habits (I know I was in charge of the fork that put the food in my mouth but they caused the void that I had to fill) to be obese makes my heart a little happier. 

I am living a great life. I have big goals and am working my butt off to achieve them! I could care less about their goings on but to know that physically and mentally I'm in a better place than I was back then makes me smile a little bigger. :)

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Okay here are most of my eats... Some are not pictured bc I was too hangry to snap a picture before stuffing my face.

I eat the same thing for breakfast every weekday.

Bfast-protein bar and either an apple, banana, or orange.

snack-either protein bar with 2tbsp of peanuts/natural PB or yogurt with sunflower seeds mixed in.

Lunch- 1)whole egg, 3)egg whites, a couple sprinkles of cheese, a little bit of Louisianna hot sauce. And a can of green beans.

or

same recipe for the eggs but 2/3 cup of quick oats with 2-tbsp of PB2 and some honey.

snack- usually the same as my first snack... But high carb days are pictured below.

 Dinner- is different every night and isn't perfect. This is the toughest one for me to stay on track.....