I'm not a quitter...

  So I haven't updated yall on my 'derby days'. I was pretty stoked to be apart of my local derby team you can read about that here. But I had to be realistic about it. Even though I had been wanting to do derby for quite sometime I had to think about my family and their needs not just my own. I made a pros/cons list as I do with all my big decisions yep I'm a nerd. The cons list doubled the pros list and that ultimately made my decision for me.

If I wanted to continue doing derby then I would have to give up either weight lifting or running and honestly I wasn't willing to give up either. It was a matter of money and time. I already spend so much on my running gear and gym membership. And with derby I would have to pay for another "membership" to rent the skating rink to practice only 2 nights a week 2hours each day. I would have to buy a rookie package which would contain all the gear that I would need which would be over $200. Originally we were going to start practicing and making decisions in January so that would be better financially but now they want to officially start in November. I for one am not willing to spend much money on myself especially it being so close to Christmas. I have put too much time into both and couldn't bare the thought of having to give up one. Its like they are both my children and I couldn't give up one, if that makes sense? Also, just from the two practices that I went to I was dog tired the next day. The practices are from 8pm-10pm so by the time I got home and whined down, took a shower, and got ready for the next day it was about midnight. And I just cant deal with that. Normally roller derby's put on fund raisers or go out and promote the team so they can recruit other team members and I'm just not willing to lose more time away from my family...

I mean I workout and run usually when the baby is still sleeping and mostly when the hubs is sleeping. So really I don't miss out on much but I don't want to miss out on more than I have to.

I know I don't like to quit things but honestly they officially started several weeks after I 'quit' so that makes me feel less like a quitter. Also most things that I used to quit were because of things like it was too hard, or I was out of shape, or I was unmotivated to actually put effort into it. This time around I am more than physically capable, I was motivated to push myself, and it was actually pretty easy for me.

If this opportunity would've come up before I started running last year then I wouldn't have blinked or even thought twice but this is the reality and I'm okay with that. I would rather give that up than to be so busy I can't enjoy one of my other hobbies or the free time I have with my family. :)